Good Bye…

To wait, to receive and to read text message has been part of my life since 2 months ago. But it ended last Tuesday. Every text message I received for the past 2 months is like a game for me coz you’ll never know when and which text messages will make you loss something very precious to you.
I received a message at 5.15pm (Russia time) from my brother saying that my grandma passed away. Why? Why? It’s just 3 more weeks and I’ll be home to see her. Just 3 weeks. 3 weeks. But now, I can’t see her anymore. I can’t even pay my last respect to her. I really miss her.

What are you doing outside?
What are you doing with that sack of corn?
What are you doing with that pruner?
What are you doing with that spear?
What are you doing with that hammer?
What are you doing with that coal?
What are you doing with that cane?
Did you climb the tree again?
Did you feed the chicken by yourself again?
Did you pluck the rambutan again?
Did you go gardening again?
Did you fix the chicken cage again?
Did you use the coal stoves again?
Did you chase cousin with the cane again?
I miss asking you these questions…

How are you?
How are you studies?
What do you wanna eat today?
What are you planning to do later?
Why are you so thin?
Why are you sweating so much?
Have you eaten?
Have you gain any weight?
Are you happy studying there?
Are you coming back next year?
When are you coming back?
When are you graduating?
I miss you asking me these questions…

Grandmama, you are always so concern about my health and weight… but dun worry, I am eating healthy food now, I gained some weight, I’ll try my very best in my studies, I’ll enjoy everything I do, I’ll cherish every memory we have, I love you and I will miss you very much.